As you may know, I have Non-Hodgkin's Lymphoma and will start chemo in the near future. So what is my first thought when I get all this news? Is my hair going to fall out? Well, nobody knows the answer to that but more than likely it will. I know people that have gone through chemo and didn't lose their hair but I am preparing myself for the worse. This is were my vanity comes into play. I know I have much more important things to worry about but really- what girl wants to be bald. I guess Demi Moore and Sinead O'Conner liked it. I figure, if I can't whine about it on my blog about beauty and fashion than were can I whine about it. If you are reading this blog then you probably care about that kind of stuff too.
So here I go. My first negative thoughts:
- I have a BIG head. Literally. What is that going to look like?
- Not to sound braggy but I have good hair. I mean it is by no means perfect (I could definitely use some more volume) but I like it. What if it doesn't come back the same?
- Then there is the thought of losing my eyebrows. I LOVE my eyebrows. I have gotten used to their bushiness.
- And then the question- Do I wear a wig or do I not wear a wig? I think a wig would be hot.
I am going to now try and think positively:
- Getting ready in the morning will be super fast.
- I can focus more on my makeup.
- Cute scarves can make a boring outfit look better.
- I am thinking if I wear big chunky statement necklaces that it may distract from my head.
- Maybe my leg hair and underarm hair will fall out and never come back. That would be nice.
- Bald headed little babies look adorable.
- When it does grow back I can try all those pixie cuts I have pinned on Pinterest. I would never be brave enough to cut my hair that short normally.
I guess you can think positive thoughts in any situation. I don't want to turn my blog into this "crazy cancer lady blog" but this is my reality now and maybe it can help people going through similar situations. I have found a blog called Lil Blue Boo (not all about cancer but more of a creative/craft blog) whose author Ashley is going through chemo right now. She is so inspiring and positive. You should check out her blog ASAP. Her motto is "choose joy." I think I will TRY to follow her.
Thank you for reading and all of your sweet comments!
5 comments:
I can't believe I am laughing out loud while reading a post about cancer. Is that okay?! Your point about the bald headed baby sent me over the edge. If 'crazy cancer lady' is as funny as this post, I say bring-her-on! And yes, you do have really good hair. I'll be sad to see it go too, but the idea of a cute pixie cut is intriguing :)
Jordan - you are awesome. I hope your hair doesn't fall out (sending up some prayers on your behalf), but more importantly, I pray that YOU will be healed and well.
Laughter will be so key I'm sure. And I love your intention to chose joy - that is a struggle daily isn't it, but more so when we face big obstacles in our lives. I say, kick Satan in the teeth by choosing JOY, because Lord knows he just wants you to choose negativity and all the bad stuff that steals our joy. Go ahead and vent all you want! You are amazing!
I just found your blog and loved this post. I'm so sorry to hear about your diagnosis, but I think you have the perfect outlet for your thoughts, frustrations, hopes, and dreams in this blog. Keep the funny stuff coming! BTW, I have always been afraid to try a pixie cut due to my large head as well.
I just found your blog and loved this post. I'm so sorry to hear about your diagnosis, but I think you have the perfect outlet for your thoughts, frustrations, hopes, and dreams in this blog. Keep the funny stuff coming! BTW, I have always been afraid to try a pixie cut due to my large head as well.
I too had GREAT eyebrows. I mean like Brooke Shields eyebrows and I did lose them to chemo (not completely but they are significantly thinned). But you know what - its OK! In the scheme of things, I can pencil them in if I feel the need and even though my hair is now so different. my lashes and brows aren't what they once were - it really is ok. I have learned to not freak out about it (ok maybe I still do every once in a while when I invite myself to my Pity Party). The bald thing is SO weird. Sleeping is the strangest. I used to wear a sleep cap with little white lace - I felt like I should have been in Little House on the Prairie and it isn't very attractive. :-) I lived in my wig - I actually loved it and you couldn't tell it was a wig - even my cancer team - doctors and nurses said it was the best wig they ever saw. LOL I guess that was a positive thing - it was kinda fun fooling everyone. Good Luck!
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