I ventured out for the first time on Sunday with nothing on my head. It feels so much better actually with nothing. I was starting to get into predicaments with my clothing and scarves options. Like: Oh I want to wear this shirt but wait I have no scarf to match it. It wasn't too bad. Not too many stares. Wow my head is white! Isn't it?
This past week while I wasn't feeling well I started to feel a little anxious about having to do 3-5 more rounds of chemo. Kinda feeling like I don't know if I can do this anymore. I mean I really don't feel that bad (it could be a lot worse) but it just gets hard laying around the house. I used to think laying in bed an watching tv all day sounded fabulous but it does get boring. I am actually looking forward to getting back into my routine of laundry, cleaning, grocery shopping. I know it's normal to have down days and I try to stay positive as much as I can but this chemo thing sucks! When my husband got home on Thursday I whined to him "I am sick of this, I want my hair back, I gaining weight etc." Sometimes you just have to let it out, ya know? He talked me down and I felt better the next day. It's amazing how easily I get over things.
I got a little off my "positive train" track. I have to keep trusting that God has his plan and I am not in control.
On another note, here are a few things I picked up on my Mother's Day Target outing.
I have seen so many bloggers with those black sandals so of course I NEEDED them. They also have them in brown which I would have preferred but I already have so many brown sandals. I am in a gold and brown phase.