Monday, May 14, 2012

Mother's Day

Hope all of you mother's had a wonderful relaxing Mother's Day! I had a great one! I am starting to feel a little better after the last chemo round. We had brunch on Sunday and I wandered around Target all by myself in the afternoon.  A few years ago I would have thought that was sad but now-it's great!

I ventured out for the first time on Sunday with nothing on my head. It feels so much better actually with nothing. I was starting to get into predicaments with my clothing and scarves options. Like: Oh I want to wear this shirt but wait I have no scarf to match it. It wasn't too bad. Not too many stares. Wow my head is white! Isn't it?

This past week while I wasn't feeling well I started to feel a little anxious about having to do 3-5 more rounds of chemo. Kinda feeling like I don't know if I can do this anymore.  I mean I really don't feel that bad (it could be a lot worse) but it just gets hard laying around the house. I used to think laying in bed an watching tv all day sounded fabulous but it does get boring. I am actually looking forward to getting back into my routine of laundry, cleaning, grocery shopping. I know it's normal to have down days and I try to stay positive as much as I can but this chemo thing sucks! When my husband got home on Thursday I whined to him "I am sick of this, I want my hair back, I gaining weight etc." Sometimes you just have to let it out, ya know? He talked me down and I felt better the next day. It's amazing how easily I get over things.

I got a little off my "positive train" track. I have to keep trusting that God has his plan and I am not in control.

On another note, here are a few things I picked up on my Mother's Day Target outing.

I have seen so many bloggers with those black sandals so of course I NEEDED them. They also have them in brown which I would have preferred but I already have so many brown sandals. I am in a gold and brown phase.


Lisa Mowry said...

I'm glad you had a good Mother's Day yesterday! I also LOVE wandering around Target alone. I almost did that yesterday too. Sorry you had some down days. Glad to hear you are feeling better. I'm so proud of you handling everything. You are amazing!!

Chassity (Look Linger Love) said...

Aw, glad the Mother's Day was good. And I say go scarfless. You really do look pretty like that. God does have a plan. I don't yet know what kind of cancer you have... I'm hoping it's something where this chemo will knock it out?

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